Friday, November 19, 2010

Miss you

I miss you Dunkin'. I miss the unconditional love. I miss the elation at watching you understand this world full and run mostly by humans. You were one of us. What gets me is that you should be here. They took you. They extinguished your life and I had to watch it all happen.

Grad school has a way of distracting me from the details for moments at a time. Regardless, I sit in my office and cry for you, and remembering the trauma and what they did to me, to my life, my future and the present.

I watched a great show Dogs Decoded on Nova

Key take aways:
* Owning a dog extends your life
* Dog owner's chemical reaction is the same as a breast feeding mother to her newborn
* Dogs also experience the chemical connection with the owner
* Dog owners are less likely to have a heart attack

I told them on that day, minutes after you were taken. I told them "you killed me, you don't know what you've done, you killed ME!"

I've been a zombie since.

...A zombie with dry salt paths on my clothes and cheeks. I do my best to honor you and I know you want me to not cry. I am doing my best. I graduate in weeks with a GPA better than undergrad. 3.4... this was our time to move back home and take care of ourselves, by myself, relaying solely on myself. And now? Now I have to figure out the new plan and there are several. They are not as bright as they would be were you still here, lil daddy Dunkin'.


  1. Hi,

    I hope you got your justice for you and Dunkin'. How are you feeling? Did you go back to school?

  2. But what town did this happen in?? I hope to become more visible as an activist for disability rights, mine being mostly work on housing issues up to this point. What is the name of the US Representative for that area of Arizona? You never know who I will run into.

  3. how sad...I am praying for justice sis...I love your dog and story...let your voice be heard!

  4. so what ended up happening? did you follow-up on getting some closure from the cops...?

  5. This is written about two years later. What has happened? What has been done? I know that this is a sad story. We live in truly sad times. But, what is being done? From what I can tell, nothing. That fact is a REAL shame. Shame to you. Shame to all that know of this. Doing nothing, absolutely nothing, puts the shame squarely on your shoulders. And, if there is one thing that I do know to be true, what goes around comes around, and you all will feel this. Shame.

  6. I don't know you, but I wanted to say I love you and I'm so sorry about what happened to you and your dog. I'm a victim of violence--I can't really say survivor--and am now a service dog owner. Your story brings tears to my eyes. I believe that the criminal penalties for injury or death of a service dog need to be far more severe--and certainly the laws apply to every citizen, even law enforcement.

  7. Saw you on Alex Jones. We are in a police state.

  8. So, what was the REASON for pulling you OVER? You don't seem to explain why they pulled you over in the first place.